isolated

the pinnacle of the fun element disappointly etches away from the clutches of what lies beyond. the memories within seems to detoriate, as the natural outburst of precise ease movement meets with the hesitation of the mind. not that the mind is unsettled, the worrying anticipation overwrites, sending messages through nerves which caused forgetfulness. forget the fingers, the single opening meant for the holy transition of ideas tends to shoot off too, thus forgeting its roots. backtracking a whole lot, it boils down to the question of purpose and existance. but i would like to emphasize a trait, where i may boldy comment, that people do cast aside in their brain. the basis of things - not mathematics for that matter, but it aids one's understanding, connecting the numerous equations with what is said to be life forms. solving such tedious and ostensibly impossible task would definitely not take an hour or two; go figure. so the beautiful geometry of being wholesome comes back to haunt people as the vicious cycle, for which i have gone in literal circles explaining. =) knowledge is taken for granted, and is often overlooked even the simplest of things. i'll be anal and give a total-idiot example, why 1 + 1 = 2? oh yes, the classic of one rain drop plus one rain drop gives a bigger raindrop. funny, but we were talking about the qualitative analysis of the figures. this is the basics, and basically gets tougher and goes unseen, not saying i'm being extremely sourly acidic nor basic here. how interesting is the play of words yea?

the capacity of what a human can take is unfortunately one-tenth its durability, and if we can exceed so, there's no way that nobel prize wouldn't be sitting on our desktop. the course of nature: arh, what a delicate topic! so the whole ideas on purpose kicks in, creating words like signifance, existance and what not. people, born in environments which are not similar, will attain various perspective. to consider all is only impossible, which is why words like madness and shock arises. since we're on the topic, i'll drift away abit to comment on prelims. so i've been hearing people pwning the papers, while i dare not give comments. i've learnt my lesson on the danger of careless mistakes. cruel as it is, it does give unexpected remarks and expressions. wouldn't it be better if i'd say i do lousy and pursue a lower hope and exceed expectation rather than vice versa? sure, to satisfy and stroke the egos of others, one would bend and curve upon other's arrival, but the end will show. =) coming back, the innate abilities which ourselves don't know could surface at different parts of our lives or never at all. so intricately structured, the human being is a masterpiece. people who throw away self-worth would not know the gift, as potential is a highly controversial term. the self, with the aid of imagination, begins to wander/(o) and experiences conjured images, feelings and impressions. such is what human beings will go through undoubtedly, hence we call it life. =)

rebirth

as the legends do bring about, phoenixes are mystical majestic creatures complimented by their breath of fire. or so, were they white but emblazoned by the blistering and sweltering heat, flapping their wings spirally covered with feathers. of course, there is a mistake, for 'tis is but a myth, only lively portrayed in thy's imagination; such were the clouds. =) the convulsive bulging of the waters, matched with the ripples and clear blue water entices people to marvel at its beauty. faced away from the sun, the land, sea and air were nature's call to hoax my subconscious as they gave me a 'feeling'. the condensation of water droplets made the humidity seem dreamy, and vision was vividly painted in one's mind despite total darkness. aeroplanes aside, the fluffy clouds were ever present, and sometimes the sky was genuinly clear. ships were anchored and little movement of incomings filled the calm, soothing sea. the lush greenery and a feast of bikes hogged the land. and so, distractions minimal seemed abundant, as the tranquility was easily broken by slight mutters and boisterous laughters 50metres radius from point of camping. thoughts were gradually released from floodgates as the location seemed to undergo a timestop. the process brought great memories; amazing how the mind could once cogitate and ascertain calmly logic and ethics. undaunted by the external environment, one could reason in his favour and convince morality. one could forget anything -friends, memories, materials etc. - but when one forgets himself, all is gone. i had almost lost the one key spiritual soul, luckily it was bounded back before the dark side could totally evolve and morph. the rebirth of the phoenix is very exciting, as rising from the dead is definitely not a common sight. the flames of fervent burn vigorously as the spirit of fire lives on...

steam

what a time to get all fired up, puffing air from various body parts! first up was fade to black plus guitar, then came S&M, followed by rave, next up was bleach, there were great papers and lastly and with fury, FF7 advent children!!! OMG! all these hair raising experiences within afew days and during exam period, TAHAN!! i have come to realise why exam periods are so exciting, yea man! i love the way play comes during examinations, it not only boosts morale but also destresses, no wonder i've been sleeping through my papers. darn am i tired, such heated up fiery motivation wears out the physique, but heals the wound as it becomes scratchy.

the thought of power and blasting is indeed mortifying. the potential of control is unlimited, and the struggle to get the better of the situation is unthinkable. so Man is ambitious, and thou must revert. And Brutus said Caesar was ambitious, and Brutus is an honourable man. personality tests would be a good gauge to those who do not know thyself, and how ironic. change is inevitable, but change is not good if its for the worst. power in the hands of the beholder drifts and transmute in the passing eye of the onlooker. gyrate the whirlpool of force and perception will conquer the power. the mind thirsts, and i ponder... ...

bags and affirnity

lol... what am i to say? so i took it all out in blasting S&M the whole day as i chiong comics yet again, giving me a rather big surprise. and yes, i've completed winds of war campaign twice. so i've heard many people thrashing the maths c paper, while i weep in agony. so i still have one more week lah, but thing is the mood's dissipated. anyway, i went to bedok jetty finally, and luck was with me as the red yolk began to sunk. short lasting, haiz.. but its heartening =) the amazing thing is that on the other side, the moon was showing too. oh well, if only there's a time where they coincide, that'll be marvellous. the present was ironic, as we gave jingjin a treat on that day they are triumphant,tantamount to victory and felt like it was mine own but i was paying. the two bags i was carrying felt warm but i know not what thy desires. i await: final fantasy advent children would be interesting. there's alot in life to chance on, are we moving on parallel worlds?

insult

so yes bro, i agree with everything you said. thanks edwin! you rock dude =)
also, thanks (in order) rayner, dar, zzy, valerie, audrey, eunice, miko, kumar, halim, fir, brandon, jorcelyn, nat, eng, phuayying, szeteng and tauyong! for you know why, thanks again =)
so i steamed yesterday just before the gift while everyone else mugging. S&M totally rockS!
well the same thing happened today, whereby people were stunned. but this time, things got worst and we got screwed, but its an experience; quite interesting though. =) i was still laughing all the way as we could really take her words in another form. that stuck sucks, but junjie and weiding the geniuses shared a common expression while mine was meant for 2. but face it, this is how we live yea? alright, till then - chemistry: what a choice... ...

the mark

so here i am again, making my 100th post on such a remarkable day... and would be entering the slaughterhouse tomorrow . imagine chionging onto the battlefield with absolutely zero preparation and one has been slacking and eating too much, no need for elaboration i guess huh? i'm worried yet not worried... wahahahaha, oxymoron. physical scars haven't heal, internal sickness still prevail, mentally unprepared, a heart in turmoil; what better condition to take an examination? and quite a significant post this is... as usual, i have slacked the entire day of 1 day before an actual major examination starts. if only i could visit east coast, that would be good. but hey, that's so wrong, because i have been slacking for most of my holidays. there's no tinge of regret unless i don't make the mark, which i probably won't. oh well, its super interesting how the stars coincide tomorrow, just be mystified how the events fall in place unanimously. heheh. may the heavens be so kind as to bestow luck and light upon thy path!

recollecting on the past 2 years, it really bedazzles me how quickly time fries, oopz, i mean flies. stepping into mjc for my 1st 3 months, meeting cool people from my OG Alhena 3 and 04S101. the crazy stuff my ex-funky class used to do, especially the trip to laselle sia. woot! kena scolded thereafter by mrs crossley, but a twist of fate left me talking to her again, this time, however, on a personal level discussing school stuff. 2nd orientation saw me as sargas 2 games ic, working with qingde and wanling in bedok PTSB race, whom both later became my heads in council. met more new people in squash as the monfortians dominated and we clicked. after that, i rejected posts in CG (04S102), squash and house comm to run for council elections, and had slacked my way into victory. lol. the day i got into council, so many unfamiliar faces and together, we first went up close with ms lai. what followed after was an immediate series of relentless hardwork, be it appreciated or not. but i swallowed my pride and took it the hard way, always looking like i did nothing. =) anyway, investure was a comical reflection of how naive we were as we faced off CTC and LTC with countless scoldings. i even spent my holidays doing scout work, facilitating cub scouts in a training camp. not forgetting to enjoy, had a chalet with my classmates too! the next major event which followed was National Day, unfortunately, i went to Korea to take part in my first ever scout jamboree! give and take, i forsaked the bonds which were link during that council event for the extreme fun in a once in a lifetime experience overseas (first time, and without parents!) my studies took a turn too, as i struggled to stay alive coming home physically battered after squash, mentally tired after council; day by day i was never to enjoy a single moment of peace. stretching my limits, my social contacts were cut off as i almost died trying to complete tutorials and work. then, i actually worked for promos, but only on my maths, and reaped rewards with my disgusting result slip of A, A, AO. grrr! if only i could erase that O! hahaha.. but still, i managed to fight for my S paper and proved my ability to take it. then came prom night, and it was one hell of a stunning affair! heheh! it was just so so cool, as my relation with kumar improved. after that fateful night, the council then took up 1st orientation, which tormented our holidays. missing lessons was a norm, as there were various events for us to attend to now and then. as our numbers were further reduced, the load that SA comm had not only didn't spare us, but also rub salt in our wound to add to our misery. theorathically, i wasn't doing much in first O, but in actual fact i was all over the place. i will NEVER forget those 5 days in my life, where my emotions and personality partook a major change. many problems arised as my results took a plunge down, hurt by the least ideal situation of giving up venturing, lost my place in the squash team, thrashings by council talks, scorned by friends so on and so forth. then, 2nd O passed with lesser stress than in Orientation 1, but the clash with block test sucked. had been in regulus and vega, like an all-rounder, with each of the four houses giving me different special feelings. then things seemed to turn for the better, squash tournament was over and its 1 down! no more scouts involvement: 2 down. fast forwarding to the 3rd council elections, the news stars are arising. a new found joy in jamming: "we got older but we're still young, we never grew out of this feeling that we won't give up" and walah! council's over, so there's only studies plus s paper left to concentrate on. picked up guitar, indulged in anime and accelerated on biking, to sort of make up for my devoid of entertainment previously. also, i regained social contact as i continued to go out with different groups of friends. didn't do much and was unprepared for midyears, hence the screwy results. then it was obvious that the final lap has come, and effort was put in to maintain a constant pace. however, up till now i have slacked and tomorrow would mark the beginning of the end of my jc life. how wonderful eh? so all the best to everyone, and that was the wish i made! =)

the reckoning

All hail a good start at school where thy was enlightened. having light hearted discussions with tutors is a joy in the sense where great minds connect and piece forth ideas. mutual understanding is achieved and knowledge is processed: the purpose of consultation fulfilled. a simple thank you just ain't enough, as words can't aptly express mine gratitude and they deserve more than a Teachers' Day. heh =)

lunched with samuel before heading to hongwei's house. there, i cauguht up with episodes i was lagging behind, and had thoroughly enjoyed myself. thereafter was the quest of unraveling the puzzle which befuddled my two friends. a challenging task, but all mysteries in the world can be solved; "it will all work out somehow" "it's alright! =)" after logical deductions, a barrier begun to form between information and my brain slowly. initially highly permeable, the walls thicken and thy concluded that it was pointless. loL!~ oh well, a good dinner followed with plain talk with samuel, and now comes the exciting part... ...

thin tyres, no fork, problematic shifters, low gear, high leg power and a low seat set me towards siglap. checking back for cars, chicken feet felt the uneveness of the tar as i temporary became superman. sliding with style directly beside the white bars parting the road, superman turned rightly lame as he cowardly limped to the sidewalk. fortunately, or rather unfortunately, there were no approaching vehicles which could have terminated my earthly worries and imperfection and i wouldn't be blogging no more. wahahahaha! the omens proved too kind to have shook me up from 'the conjurer', as the good nature of singaporeans unveiled. assisting such a poor boy would better their karma perhaps? nonetheless, i'm grateful for as ironman teamaker comes to superman's rescue. buffering the physical uneasiness, my legs continued to peddle the crank arms as the wind at east coast blew me into life. it sort of behaved as anesthetic while thy companions lifted me away from the physical world into their conversation of house of ideas and humour. we met MJ's security guard and had a nice chat with him about happenings.

'the conjurer' had been cunning and left me hallucinating with a conglomeration of guilt and urgency which are mutually exclusive events. still, it doesn't rest as more anxiety sets it due to other injuries and a fabrication to save the love of a sport. trouble seems to add on to numerous people and to top it all, it has to refuke all its plans and be isolated, which would be killing two birds with a stone. and so, thy will have to face war with a battered body. the multiple meanings have taken alot out of me, and here i shall now rest.

hence

tomorrow would be the beginning of the end, hence i would like to warm up in my expression.

life, as it seems, have to have its ups and downs. the many encounters will prove to shape and mould us into the present, which is a rather nice gift bestowed upon us. adversities and tumultous times are dreaded, i beg to differ and even welcome them. the emotional rollercoaster is one wild ride i would never give a miss for. however, in the recent months, where times are supposed to be fateful and telling, i happen to enjoy life more than other times. visits to east coast have become more frequent, not to relieve stress, but to have my fair share of life. it may not be fair to myself, but fact is i choose not to study and balance out by relaxing. give and take i do not, as the results will show. a healthy lifestyle would be better, so people, slack. there's still so much time, fret not and do not shove yourselves to a corner. the results will definitely automatically get better, i assure.

farewell my friends, as we adjourn to paradise. consider the worth of the papers, so little yet so much.