stream of thoughts

when the world so seemingly conspires against you: utter dejection. yet, do we even take a step back, and point out 'hey, it could have been worse'? 'the pilgramage' suggests a 'cruelty exercise', in which physical pain is self-inflicted to embrace one's spiritual damage a negative thought does to oneself . i beg to differ, with the principle of balance standing strong. i believe that if one is cognizant regarding his/her own self, though the exercise might strengthen self belief and hence worth of living, the former is sufficient to me. moving on, i carried out the speed excercise, where you would take at least 10 mins off and walk at half your normal walking speed. take note of the environment around you, you will then realize alot of stuff; try it and you'll understand =). plunging deeper in thought, i shook my head to awake myself and realised i was 'stoning', while in actual fact, as being nicely put, pondering over philosophy. the brain is indefinitely a very significant and powerful tool, as the ever-present innate desire to seek understanding puzzles me. such is the irony of the world. and as my friend had commented, the world is not fair. such hasty generalisation, yet apparently true for most people. fairness; does justice reign over our hearts? the important thing here is, i feel, the nourishing of the soul combined with a fulfilled life. why do we struggle with such menial stuff? there are infinite variations to interpretations, so why seek? it once again brings us back to balance, and the vicious cycle repeats...