A matter of heart

to others, it was a complete success. laughter and smiles clogged up the atmosphere, yet a spotlight of despondence enclosed the spherical radius of one person; jaded. it didn't feel like the previous year, it was empty. too high an expectation perhaps, no obvious sense of relief nor joy; just indifferent. it was a matter of heart where the heart did not matter. drained, i gave everything i got. i guess i shouldn't have expected anything in return.

well, just opened my ang baos. it's funny how people take its original meaning for granted, squandering away their fortunate blessings they knew not. i'm contented with what little i have, less than half of what people get every year. the spirit of visiting still lives within me =)

i swear i'm turning indian. their vegetarian food is simply irresistable! and banana apolo leaf was fantabulous. al-ameentoo has never failed me. was introed to a coffee chill-out location, Papa Palheta Specialty Coffee, an old-school backdrop with terrific coffee.

ralph and andy have gone to aussieland for studies, which spells more lonely nights for me.

time to look inside and let the heart bring me to the next path.